After nearly 3 months I am finally back working in my studio again. After the moving/not moving debacle back in July, and then losing our dog at the same time... Um well I guess I should explain that as well.
When we went on vacation in July he had been seizure free for almost 6 weeks (and considering before that, he'd been having clusters of them every week, that was a God-send for him), we returned home and that first night back he had a seizure. But unlike all of his previous episodes over the past 2 years, this one didn't stop! In the months prior to this episode, we as a family had talked about what was the bet thing to do for HIM, and we all agreed that if things got worse then we would make the tough decision to stop his suffering. If you've never had an animal suffer from seizures, know that they are painful to watch, often painful for the animal not to mention the disorientation that follows for hours afterwards. Medications may 'control' the seizures, but often lead to nasty side effects of their own like sluggishness, confusion, weight gain despite lack of appetite, and other side effects that are nearly as bad as the after effects of the seizure itself.
It was 2 o'clock in the morning when his last seizure started. As we always did we sat with him, petted him and talked to him. At around 3am he lifted his head and looked at me and just let our this mournful heart-wrenching howl. My husband and I looked at each other and just knew. He was hurting and it was time to make the call. I called a local emergency vet and through my tears I made the appointment. It was about 6am by the time he had settled down enough that we could move him without hurting him and got to the vet. By that time we knew that mentally he was already gone, but the pain of letting him go physically is STILL painful to me (and I crying as I type this). But we knew it was the right thing to do, and it was the only way to truly do what was best for him.
We were blessed to have Scruffy in our lives for 2 years and will ALWAYS remember him fondly!
Ok sorry, I had intended this post to be about the most recent crafting I've done, but at this point, well I just can't today. I am sorry this post ended up being so sad, but when I realized that I never let you guys know about our buddy, I knew I had to. Thanks for bearing with me, while I relived this. I promise to come back tomorrow (or later today) and share something fun!